At first glance. Your eyes... Your smile... Your hair... Your laugh... Nothing seemed too perfect...
But I had no idea what was in store for me, since our meeting...
3 Months later you had moved in... Living with your boyfriend was no trouble at all. It was comforting, to watch you live a happy life, knowing that your future would be a happily married couple together..
It was the year 2000, I remember it clearly... The day was sunny.. a few clouds in the sky... warm.. it was quite a day as I drove your boyfriend to pick you up... in fact, I remember it also being about 2 hours to get there.. In my shoddy little car... with a sticker on the side petrol cap, that read the name of a band, I once managed... "Paper Clip" it read... resembling an image of nothing more than the name itself. A paper clip...
I remember waiting in the car for quite some time... It was not the official day we had met... This was to come about 2 / 3 months later.... I had to wait in the car that day.. Leaving you both some privacy and some time together... I spent that day just waiting...
I guess, I was waiting because it's what I find myself doing now still.
(Which we will get into later.)
--- Finally the day came..
You were moving into our little apartment... it was a 2 bedroom flatlet. at the lower level. 1st floor. I was bewildered at the beauty that would greet me... (as mentioned above) Your eyes, and smile. everything.. at first I thought it was just the physical attraction, and really thought not much of it...
After all, you were my mates woman...
As we all lived together, we decided we would move out into a bigger place together.. It was then, that I knew that we had more in common than I ever thought..
Apart from the past, having similarities in taste in music, your current lifestyle had changed, and your music style was exactly not my forte.. Sufficed to say, neither was my taste in music for you...
(Perhaps a reminder of darker times in your past? A question I never asked, and will never know)
I had worked for a pretty reputable retail company, and your boyfriend had an IT job and was well versed in web design etc...
Because of my company shifts, I had spent much of my days off with you.. (As I'm sure you will remember one such day)
You were now pregnant, and expecting your very first child. You were having morning sickness, and had a headache... it was nearing the time your boyfriend was due to return home for lunch before he went back to work..
Although quite a drive on his bike, he still came to see you every lunch time and stayed for 30 minutes...
Prior to his arrival, I offered to give you a massage, relieving all the pain and discomfort out of your head, Your headache, eyes and nausea had been treated, and you were feeling better...
It was then as you and I started sharing our stories and beliefs... Mostly bordering on music, and Elves and Fairies, all the fantastical creatures we believed existed and we made that final connection..
Nothing more happened then. We never did anything, except talked. Your boyfriend came home and you to had lunch together, he had seen me massage your shoulders. and this had irked him, which later came to play that evening...
Well. I must say, later that evening there was hell to pay.. I was in my room, reading I think, or was it me hiding because I heard him hitting cupboards, and angrily raising his voice at you. For no idea at the time, which only later on, I found out...
It was because he caught us talking and me massaging your shoulders and relieving your pain.
It was only once he left the house that night in a rage, drove off on his bike to cool off, that I came into the room to the damages in the room.
But the biggest damage was only later revealed to me in our friendship... <3
It was then, that I knelt down on both my knees and I made a solemn promise to you, that I would always be there for you till the day I died...
Do you remember these days? any detail of it? I know this is my side of the story and maybe one day you will read these letters here and you will remember your side of the story...
Fred <3
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